Tuesday, 29 December 2009

The year is coming to an end. It marks an end to the year and a start of new year. Many things have gone down the history this year. Many have break barriers and many things have advance and evolved. A brand new page of history is about to be written.

However, mine is going to be all the same as ever. Repeating a year and starting to make new friends. Something that i will enjoy but regret. It's a really hard way to learn a lesson. I told myself many times that I am going to study in the holidays but i didn't had the motivation to do so. I must change it i always say but I never did. The past one year when i looked back, i regret doing many things. I enjoyed too much of my JC life than suffer. I should have suffer more back then. Should have studied harder, play lesser, went out a little lesser. Many will say it's over, next year just buck up. True, but it will always remain as a scar in my life. It's a painful cut that will take a long time to heal.

Things have change and people have moved on. I started missing my friends every single time I think about the fact that i am not there to accompany them to walk out of the school after the next year. I hate to think about the fact that I will always be one year behind them. I don't know what to do. The more i come in contact with them the more I feel foreign to them. Do i really know them as well as i thought that I knew them. Everytime i am with them, they always do things that surprises me. Are they really who i belong to?...

Daniel Tan blogged at 23:38

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